All for the love of greed and worthless adulation. All for nothing.

I knew I wasn’t going to be able to fully function for the next few weeks, that I was going to fuck up more shit in my apartment like always. That seeing her like this, seeing her getting worse without having someone else trustworthy enough to talk about it with, was going to have a lasting effect on me.

Maybe it was good that Gillian left after all.

GILLIAN

~BLOG POST~

Present Day

This is the last time I will say this to myself.

The very last time.

My heart can’t take another sequence of angry arguments, another round in this dangerous game of “Will we make it? Should we make it?” or another spin on this never-ending carousel of highs and lows.

Yes, the way this man fucks me is incomparable and leaves me craving more the second he pulls out of me. And yes, the way he pleasures my pussy with his mouth and makes me come for hours on end will forever be unparalleled. But the way we fit (rather, don’t fit) has finally reached its climax.

I will not go back.

I will not go back.

I. Will. Not. Go. Back.

If he calls me, I won’t answer.

If he texts me, I won’t respond.

If he emails me, I won’t open the message.

I’m done.

I. Am. Done.

Write later,

**Taylor G.**

1 comment posted:

KayTROLL: I’ve heard this before...Let’s see how long you last...O_o

GILLIAN

~BLOG POST~

Present Day

Two weeks down.

No messages from him, no calls.

Although, we did share a short, repositioning flight from Charlotte to Houston, and he did sign off on a form to confirm that a male passenger was being overly rude and offensive to me during the deplaning process. But, that was it.

He barely looked at me after signing the form, and we each went our separate ways to separate flights in the terminal.

He barely even looked at me...

Write later,

**Taylor G.**

1 comment posted:

KayTROLL: I’ll reserve judgment until you make it to 8 weeks...

GILLIAN

~BLOG POST~

Present Day

Four weeks.

Nothing.

Write later,

**Taylor G.**

No comments posted.

GILLIAN

~BLOG POST~

Present Day

Six weeks.

Still nothing...

Just a heavy heart and a sad realization that I really did love him, but I meant nothing to him.

Write later,

**Taylor G.**

No comments posted.

GILLIAN

~BLOG POST~

Present Day

He finally texted me today, nearly eight weeks after I walked away, and it wasn’t an apology. It wasn’t even a hello.

It was a: I need to fuck your pussy. Call me when you get this.

I hope I never see him again. I’m moving on.

Write later,

**Taylor G.**

1 comment posted:

KayTROLL: You **are** moving on...

GATE B35

JAKE

New York (JFK)

I woke up to the sound of low voices outside my bedroom, heard them talking about me as if I wasn’t here.

“Why does this tenant keep getting this TV replaced?” One voice said. “I feel like he breaks it every week.”

“It’s one of his many hobbies,” Jeff’s distinctive voice floated through the halls. “He enjoys it.”

“Yeah, well. You should probably tell him that there are hobbies out there that cost less than a thousand dollars a week.”

“I’ll be sure he knows,” Jeff said. “Thank you once again for coming by.”

“Anytime. Literally.”

The sound of my front door closing and Jeff’s signature hard-bottom shoes walking across the floor were the next things I heard. His steps were getting closer and closer to my bedroom door, and without knocking, he stepped into my space.

“You’re welcome, Mr. Weston,” he said, placing a paper invoice onto my dresser. “You’re also welcome, in advance, for finding a new botanist to take care of your plants.”

“What happened to the one I had?”

“I believe you told her to, ‘Get the fuck out of my place,’ a few nights ago during one of your episodes. Do you not remember that?”

“No.”

“I figured.” He shrugged. “Well, if you need me, I’ll be downstairs awaiting your next round of problems.”

“Wait...”

“Yes?”

“I texted Gillian as few times last night and the night before. She hasn’t texted me back.”

He blinked.

“This is the part where you fill in the blanks for me, Jeff. Why the fuck hasn’t she texted me back since you seem to know everything else?”

“I’m not sure,” he said, his voice dripping with sympathy. “But it has been over two months since you last spoke so I’m assuming you’re over.” He took a pen from his jacket pocket and wrote something on the back of the invoice. Then he walked out of my room and left the apartment.

I stood up and walked over to see what he’d written on the paper.

She dropped off the watch. It’s on your counter.

I groaned and got dressed, taking my private elevator down to the parking garage. I pulled out my phone and started to send Gillian another text, but then I looked through our history.

She hadn’t responded to me in over two weeks, and the last time she texted me—months ago, I’d never sent a reply.