I rewrote the story in my mind, this time with Heath in his proper role, as more of a villain than hero.

Even after my divorce, bitter and ugly as it was, I’d never doubted in my life that I was a complete woman, with or without a man.  I’d never needed another person to complete me.  That just wasn’t who I was.

I loved myself, and my life, and being single hadn’t changed that.

I found joy in the simple things, a perfectly composed picture, one of my children smiling.

But now, unaccountably, there was a void, some hollowed out hole in me that needed filling, so much so, I found myself constantly looking for someone who could.

I didn’t need a man, it was true, but if I wanted one, there was nothing wrong with that, either.

Sometimes I felt a bit of clarity about the whole thing.  That’s what I was calling it: the whole thing.  Relationship hardly seemed an accurate description.  Affair felt and sounded wrong.

I started looking at it differently.  Because that’s what you did when you moved on.  And I needed to move on.

Right after that woman had confronted me, I’d taken her at her words and swallowed whole the vicious things that she’d said to me.

But, after a time, a bit of reason slipped back in, and it occurred to me, that, like all things, there wasn’t only one side to this story, and her bit of venom was just one piece of the equation.

She was bitter.  She felt scorned.  Of course she’d try to twist things and shove them down my throat.

I didn’t know what the full truth was.  I figured I probably never would with Heath so definitively out of the picture, but I knew some of it.

Regardless of his motives and his lies, I did believe that on some level he’d cared about me.  And I did believe we’d helped each other in some way.

He never could have been a permanent fixture in my life.  It was naive of me to think so.  But, despite feeling foolish at the end, he’d been good for me.

So I took that and ran with it.

We’d been good for each other.  That was a fact.  Regardless of what that bitter girl had said to me, something profound had happened between Heath and me.

I helped him heal, and he helped me move on.  The end of the thing didn’t negate the purpose of it.

His name was Kevin.  He was calm as still water and had the second most fascinating pair of eyes I’d ever seen.

They were a deep blue flecked with little bits of green, but that wasn’t what made them so unique.

First of all, he was an amiable guy, very go with the flow from our very first encounter, which happened to be a fender bender.

It was his fault.  I’d hit a red light in heavy traffic, which in Vegas could easily be mistaken for a yellow (we’re all color blind drivers in this town), and I’d had a brief moment of indecision, deciding whether to speed up or halt, when I’d stopped suddenly, and he rammed into my back fender.  It wasn’t a hard hit, but it was jarring.

It should have been an upsetting occurrence, but the way he handled the whole thing impressed me enough to actually cause me to give him my real number when he asked for it.

He was just so unfazed.  I was still catching my breath when I saw a lean figure emerge from the black Camry currently attached to the rear end of my Tesla.

He made a handsome picture, wearing a nice suit and dark shades.

I rolled my window down when he stood in front of it, looking at him, wondering how he’d react to the accident.

Men usually had two reactions when they were at fault.  One, which was how my ex-husband would have reacted, was to blame the other party, regardless of the facts.  Two was to apologize and talk about how best to proceed.

Kevin chose an extreme version of the latter.

He crouched down at my window, not close enough to be in my personal space, but making a point of not looming over me.

“My God.  I can’t believe I did that.”  His voice was soft and cultured and profusely apologetic.  “I’m terribly sorry.  I looked down for a second and didn’t realize I was right on top of you.  Are you okay?”

His cajoling, sincere tone had me at ease instantly.

I nodded, attempting to smile it off.  “I’m just fine.  Accidents happen.”

He took off his shades, giving me my first glimpse of his compelling eyes.

They were ice cold.  The rest of his face moved frantically into a smile meant to put me at ease, but the eyes, they were wrong, broken.

I was caught fast.

That incongruity, with him being so kind, but having those cruel eyes.

I found myself drawn him.

Of course I was.  His very expression was at odds with itself.

And needless to say, I’m a sucker for a complicated man.

At the time, particularly that first, bemusing meeting, I didn’t connect the dots of just whom he reminded me of that made him so attractive, but it was right there all along.

In many ways, though, he was the opposite of Heath, which was also a draw.

Where Heath struggled to express himself, Kevin over-expressed.

He smiled at me, a warm smile, to belie the cold eyes.  He was a tall man, but lean with an attractive, angular face.  He was dark in the way that I was dark, where you couldn’t have placed his race if you tried, a good mix of something Latin, I assumed.  With the exception of Heath, I’d always been drawn to the tall, dark, and handsome type.

With every contact, I found myself comparing them.  It was hard not to.  So much about them was either identical, or opposite.