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Hendrix was coming right behind me, and he was giving me that look. I could feel it. I knew what that look meant.
I was full of shit.
He knew I was full of shit.
I didn’t want to be full of shit, but I was full of shit.
That girl. Damn.
Cheyenne.
We never exchanged numbers.
We’d gone faster than that.
There’d not been a lot of talking once we got to my house.
Six fucking times. Six. Fucking. Times.
I’d never had that with another girl, not in a matter of a few hours. Maybe a whole day, but Christ. And when I woke, I was aching for her all over again. But she was gone. The alarm was blaring, and I looked out the door. Nothing. She must’ve just left, so I didn’t know if she got a ride or what, but she was outta there.
Fuck, man.
Fuck.
I don’t indulge in one-night stands. You never knew what you’d get if you did that. I preferred casual relationships, keeping with the same few girls who knew the score. They lived their lives but were open if I called on them. One recently got engaged, so she called to end our arrangement. I don’t know. Maybe I’d been a little sore on that?
I didn’t think so. I’d been genuinely happy for her when she told me that, but Cheyenne-No-Last-Name was under my skin.
I hated it.
It’s a groin kick to the ego, having a girl dash from your bed and disappear like what we’d just done meant nothing. And it’s not like I won’t see her. We were signed up to volunteer at their homeless kitchen. She’d be there, or I was assuming. I remembered from being briefed on the venture that it was mostly run by volunteers, but they did have a few full-timers. She was probably one of them.
Alex. Hendrix. Frank. I caught a couple side looks, so I was figuring they all knew.
I wanted to get on the ice.
I wanted to get the game going, and I wanted to destroy the Riders.
They were in our city. It was our ice. It’d be our win.6CheyenneMy upbringing wasn’t normal, and that statement was an understatement.
Nothing had been normal about where I grew up, how I grew up, and how I ended up out here in Kansas City. I loved this city. I loved the Midwest. It was different than the west coast. There were different values here, and sometimes I didn’t like them, but it felt simpler at times, too.
Things were calmer for me, for my head, and that was my biggest relationship in my life. But actually seeing Cut, having Cut see me, talk to me, and what else that happened, I was shook. For real. Shook.
I didn’t want to say that I followed Cut out here after college, but when an opportunity came to move here, I jumped at the chance.
Cut had already been here.
He left Silvard after the first year, taking Chad with him so I had a whole three more years stepbrother-free, but also Cut-free and I hadn’t enjoyed that last part. It was probably for the best. I concentrated harder on my head, on my schooling, and being able to open up Come Our Way had been one of those benefits.
But Cut was connected to other people from my life, and it was those that were giving me the bigger headache.
Cut was connected to Chad.
Chad was connected to Natalie and her new husband.
They were all connected to Hunter, Koala Boy.
Koala Boy was connected to Deek.
Deek and Hunter were connected to me, but Koala Boy more than Deek.
Everyone had moved here. Not all at the same time, but the migration was connected in some ways.
Cut came first. Chad went with him.
Three years later, I came. No one knew I was here.
Then two years ago, Natalie’s new husband got a job transfer here. I knew this because I liked to cyberstalk my little brother. And a year ago, Deek came because Hunter was here.
So, everyone left Pine Valley except (from what else my cyberstalking had uncovered) Cut’s family. They remained back in Oregon.
I didn’t have thoughts or feelings about Natalie, Deek, or Chad. I truly didn’t, but Hunter. My little brother was a different story. The problem was Natalie. Well, the problem was all of them, but mostly Natalie. She never approved of Donna, and that cloud of judgment extended to me.
Once my head got clear, I thought long and hard about when I lived with them, and after Donna died. It took a bit to understand it, but it was hard to explain it. Sasha got it. She met Chad, who ditched her after finding out that I was her roommate. I was the one who had to break that to her, and it hadn’t been pretty. She was hurting because of him, but she also wanted to rip his head off because of me. I loved my girl, but back to the whole shitbag of Natalie and Deek.