Mr. Grosvenor’s brow knitted. “Ah, Mrs. Stirling, may I just establish . . . Are you saying you will not be living in the property with Mr. Stirling? It’s just that the landlord is a respectable gentleman. He was under the impression that he would be letting to a family.”

“He is letting to a family.”

“But you just said—”

“Mr. Grosvenor, we will be paying twenty-four pounds a week for this short let. I am a married woman. I’m sure a gentleman like you would agree that how often, and indeed whether, my husband resides there with me is nobody’s business but our own.”

His raised palm was conciliatory, a flush staining the skin around his collar. He began to stutter an apology: “It’s just—”

He was interrupted by a woman calling her name urgently. Jennifer shifted in her chair to see Yvonne Moncrieff stalking across the crowded tearoom, her wet umbrella already thrust at an unsuspecting waiter. “So you’re here!”

“Yvonne, I—”

“Where have you been? I’ve had absolutely no idea what was going on. I got out of hospital last week, and your ruddy housekeeper wouldn’t tell me a damned thing. And then Francis says—” She stopped, having realized how far her voice had carried. The tearoom had hushed, and the faces around them were agog.

“Will you excuse us, Mr. Grosvenor? I do believe we’ve finished,” Jennifer said.

He was already standing, had gathered his briefcase, and now snapped it shut emphatically. “I’ll get those papers to Mr. Stirling this afternoon. And I’ll be in touch.” He made his way toward the lobby.

When he had gone, Jennifer put a hand on her friend’s arm. “I’m sorry,” she said. “There’s an awful lot to explain. Have you got time to come upstairs?”

Yvonne Moncrieff had spent four weeks in hospital: two weeks before and two weeks after the birth of baby Alice. She had been so poleaxed by exhaustion when she’d returned home that it had taken her a further week to work out how long it had been since she had seen Jennifer. She had called twice next door, to be told only that Mrs. Stirling was not there at present. A week later she had decided to find out what was going on. “Your housekeeper just kept shaking her head at me, telling me I had to speak to Larry.”

“I suppose he’ll have told her not to say anything.”

“About what?” Yvonne threw her coat onto the bed, and sat down on one of the upholstered chairs. “Why on earth are you staying here? Have you and Larry had a row?”

There were mauve shadows under Yvonne’s eyes, but her hair was immaculate still. She already seemed strangely distant, a relic from another life, Jennifer thought. “I’ve left him,” she said.

Yvonne’s large eyes traveled over her face. “Larry got drunk at ours the night before last. Very drunk. I assumed it was business and went up to bed with the baby, leaving the men to it. When Francis came up I was half asleep, but I heard him say that Larry had told him you have a lover, and that you’d taken leave of your senses. I thought I must have dreamed it.”

“Well,” she said slowly, “part of that is true.”

Yvonne’s hand flew to her mouth. “Oh, Lord.”

Jennifer shook her head, raised a smile. “Yvonne, I’ve missed you awfully. I so wanted to talk to you . . .” She told her friend the story, bypassing some of the details but allowing most of the truth to come out. It was Yvonne, after all. The simple words, echoing in the still room, seemed to belie the enormity of what she had gone through over the past weeks. Everything had changed; everything. She finished with a flourish: “I’ll find him again. I know I will. I just have to explain.”

Yvonne had been listening intently, and Jennifer was struck by how much she had missed her acerbic, straight-talking presence.

Finally Yvonne smiled tentatively. “I’m sure he’d forgive you,” she said.

“What?”

“Larry. I’m sure he’d forgive you.”

“Larry?” Jennifer sat back.

“Yes.”

“But I don’t want to be forgiven.”

“You can’t do this, Jenny.”

“He has a mistress.”

“Oh, you can get rid of her! She’s just his secretary, for goodness’ sake. Tell him you want to make a fresh start. Tell him that’s what he has to do, too.”

Jennifer almost stumbled over the words. “But I don’t want him, Yvonne. I don’t want to be married to him.”

“You’d rather wait for some penniless playboy reporter who might not even come back?”

“Yes. I would.”

Yvonne reached into her handbag, lit a cigarette, and blew a long plume of smoke into the center of the room.

“What about Esmé?”

“What about Esmé?”

“How is she going to cope, growing up with no father?”

“She will have a father. She’ll see him all the time. In fact, she’s going to stay there this weekend. I wrote to him, and he has written back, confirming it.”

“You know the children of divorced parents get terribly teased at school. The Allsop girl is in an awful state.”

“We’re not getting divorced. None of her school friends need to know anything.”

Yvonne was still pulling determinedly at her cigarette.

Jennifer’s voice softened. “Please try to understand. There’s no reason why Laurence and I shouldn’t live apart. Society is changing. We don’t have to be trapped in something that . . . I’m sure Laurence will be far happier without me. And it doesn’t have to affect anything. Not really. You and I can stay the same. In fact, I was thinking perhaps we could get the children together this week. Perhaps take them to Madame Tussaud’s. I know Esmé’s desperate to see Dottie . . .”

“Madame Tussaud’s?”

“Or Kew Gardens. It’s just that the weather—”

“Stop.” Yvonne raised an elegant hand. “Just stop. I can’t listen to another word. My goodness. You really are the most extraordinarily selfish woman I’ve ever met.”

She stubbed out her cigarette, stood up, and reached for her coat. “What do you think life is, Jennifer? Some kind of fairy tale? You think we don’t all get fed up with our husbands? Why should you behave like that and expect us just to carry on around you while you gad about as if—as if you weren’t even married? If you want to live in a state of moral degeneracy, that’s fine. But you have a child. A husband and a child. And you can’t expect the rest of us to condone your behavior.”

Jennifer’s mouth opened.

Yvonne turned away, as if she couldn’t even look at her. “And I won’t be the only one who feels like this. I suggest you think very carefully about what you do next.” She tucked her coat over her arm and left.

Three hours later, Jennifer had made her decision.

At midday the Embakasi airport was a mêlée of activity. Having picked up her suitcase from the stuttering conveyor belt, Jennifer fought her way to the lavatory, splashed cold water over her face, and changed into a clean blouse. She pinned back her hair, the heat already moistening her neck. When she emerged, her blouse was stuck to her back within seconds.

The airport was teeming with people who stood in unruly queues or in groups, shouting at one another in place of conversation. She was briefly paralyzed, watching brightly clad African women jostle with suitcases and huge laundry bags, bound with rope, balanced on their heads. Nigerian businessmen smoked in the corners, their skin shining, while small children ran in and out of those seated on the floor. A woman with a small barrow pushed her way through, selling drinks. The departure boards revealed that several flights were delayed and gave no clue as to when that might be rectified.

In contrast to the noise in the airport building, it was peaceful outside. The last of the bad weather had cleared, the heat burning off any remaining damp so that Jennifer could see the purple mountains in the distance. The runway was empty, except for the plane she had arrived on; beneath it, a solitary man was sweeping meditatively. On the other side of the gleaming modernistic building somebody had built a small rock garden, dotted with cacti and succulents. She admired the carefully arranged boulders, and wondered that someone should have taken so much trouble in such a chaotic place.

The BOAC and East African Airways desks were shut, so she fought her way back through the crowd, ordered a cup of coffee at the bar, grabbed a table, and sat down, hemmed in by other people’s suitcases, woven baskets, and a baleful cockerel, its wings bound to its body with a school tie.

What would she say to him? She pictured him in some foreign correspondents’ club, perhaps miles from the real action, where journalists gathered to drink and discuss the day’s events. Would he be drinking? It was a tight little world, he had told her. Once she got to Stanleyville someone would know him. Someone would be able to tell her where he was. She pictured herself arriving, exhausted, at the club, a recurring image that had kept her going for the last few days. She could see him so clearly, standing under a whirring fan, perhaps chatting to a colleague, and then his amazement at the sight of her. She understood his expression: for the last forty-eight hours she had barely been able to recognize herself.

Nothing in her life had prepared her for what she had done; nothing had suggested she might even be capable of it. And yet, from the moment she had climbed aboard the aircraft, for all her fear, she had felt curiously elated, as if this might be it: this might be the business of living. And if only for that moment of intense feeling she felt a curious kinship with Anthony O’Hare.

She would find him. She had taken charge of events, rather than allowing herself to be buffeted along by them. She would decide her own future. She banished thoughts of Esmé, telling herself that this will have been worthwhile when she’d be able to introduce Anthony to her.

Eventually a young man in a smart burgundy uniform took a seat at the BOAC counter. She left her coffee where it was and half ran across the concourse to the counter.

“I need a ticket to Stanleyville,” she said, scrabbling in her handbag for money. “The next flight out. Do you need my passport?”

The young man stared at her. “No, madam,” he said, his head moving briskly from side to side. “No flying to Stanleyville.”

“But I was told you ran a direct route.”

“I’m very sorry. All flights to Stanleyville are suspended.”

She gazed at him in mute frustration until he repeated himself, then dragged her suitcase across to the EAA desk. The girl there had the same answer. “No, ma’am. There are no flights out because of the troubles.” She rolled every r. “Only flights coming in.”

“Well, when are they going to start up again? I need to get to Congo urgently.”

The two staff members exchanged a silent look. “No flights to Congo,” they repeated.

She hadn’t come this far for blank looks and refusals. I cannot give up on him now.

Outside, the man continued up and down the runway with his threadbare broom.

It was then that she saw a white man with the upright posture of the civil service walking briskly through the terminal, carrying a leather folder. Sweat had colored a deep triangle on the back of his cream linen jacket.

He saw her as she saw him. He changed direction and strode toward her. “Mrs. Ramsey?” He held out a hand. “I’m Alexander Frobisher, from the consulate. Where are your children?”

“No. My name is Jennifer Stirling.”

He closed his mouth and seemed to be trying to gauge whether she had made a mistake. His face was puffy, perhaps adding years to his true age.

“I do need your help, Mr. Frobisher,” she continued. “I have to get to Congo. Do you know if there’s a train I can catch? I’m told there are no flights. Actually, nobody will tell me very much at all.” She was conscious that her own face was glowing with heat, that her hair had already started to come down.