“Huh. I don’t think she’s feeling very talkative,” Raphael muses.

“Still. I’ll give it to her, if it’s all the same to you. This is worth it, right?” He curls his fingers around the bullet, making a fist. “You’ve been waiting for it for a long time. Pushing buttons, involving yourselves in shit you have no business involving yourself in. And now you’ve gone and done something entirely irreparable—” His eyes travel over my shoulder, back toward the man on the ground, whom I presume must be dead by now— “and you’re finally getting what you want. A blood bath. All you have to do is let her take this from me.”

Raphael seems to consider this for a minute. He then sucks in a sharp breath, gesturing an impatient flick of his wrist at the man holding me still. “Put her down, Martin.”

The grip around me is instantly gone, and my feet are on solid ground. My legs don’t feel like they’re going to hold me, though. I feel like Bambi taking his first steps. Raphael produces a gun of his own and thrusts it into my face. “Go on. Go and take it,” he snaps. A hard shove from behind pushes me forward, and Raphael moves to stand behind me. I then feel something I never imagined I would ever experience in my lifetime: the muzzle of a gun pressed against the back of my head. My limbs lock up; I can’t fucking breathe.

“Walk, bitch, or I’ll put a hole in your skull.”

I lock eyes on the biker through the railings; he gives me an almost imperceptible nod, like he’s willing me to come forward. I do as I’m told. My heart’s kicking wildly against my ribs as I put my right arm between the railings and hold out my open hand. The biker steps forward, closing in on me and taking hold of my wrist. He places the shining, tarnished gold piece of metal into my palm and curls my fingers around it tight.

“Tell them you’re a virgin,” he murmurs. “Whatever happens, make sure Hector knows that.”

“The fuck you saying to her, ese?” Raphael snaps. Before I can register what the guy has said to me I’m yanked backward, away from the stranger and away from the gate. I almost lose my footing. I hear the soft clicking of a gun being cocked behind me. “Open your hand. Tell me what you’ve got there,” Raphael snarls in my ear.

My fingers barely work; it takes serious effort to stop shaking and open my hand. Inside, I can see the slightly scuffed bullet, see the scratched marks on its surface.

“What is it?” Raphael demands, jabbing the gun in my back.

“It’s…it’s a bullet.”

“And what does it say on it?”

“It says…” I turn the metal over in my hands, trying to focus through my tears. “It says WAR.”

Howls of raucous laughter explode behind me; Raphael reaches forward and snatches the bullet from me, holding it up for his friends to see. “War!” he shouts. “Fucking war!”

The bullet is clearly a declaration, and Raphael and his men are overjoyed by it. The biker gives me a firm, meaningful look; he holds my gaze for a long moment, and then he turns around and pulls up his hood. Somehow, through all the laughter and rough housing going on around me, I hear the creaking of the snow under his boots with every step this stranger takes away from me. The Widow Makers club emblem is emblazoned in white across his back; it’s the last I see of him as he climbs back onto his bike, starts the engine and rides away.

Hands take hold of me again. Raphael’s still grinning from ear to ear as he squeezes my arm. “We’re done here,” he says.

“What are you going to do with me?” Strangely, I almost feel like laughing. People ask that question in movies, when they’re kidnapped and taken from their homes and their lives, stolen away from everything they know and hold dear. I never thought that it would one day be me asking that question.

Raphael smiles a cold, dead kind of smile. “Oh, Chiquita, we’re not going to kill if you if that’s what you’re worried about. No, you’re much too pretty for that.” He strokes the back of his hand down my cheek again, the same hand he hit me with before, and a wicked light sparks in his eyes. “You’re going to come with us. My name is Raphael...but from now on, you will call me master.”

ALEXIS

Three of Raphael’s men disappear and return shortly after in a beaten-up panel van. The windows are so dirty I’m surprised the driver can even see the road. I may be powerless against so many of them, but that doesn’t stop me from fighting like a hellcat when they try and make me get in the back. I’m reminded of a poem, a famous one by Dylan Thomas, ‘Do Not Go Gently Into That Good Night.’ The title in itself is comment enough for the situation I find myself in. The poem demands the reader kick and scream against death, and that’s exactly what I do. I kick and I scream, because getting in the back of that van is the same as dying, and I don’t want to die. I want to go home and listen to my mom gossip about her church friends. I want to do the dishes, and I want to watch TV. I want my sister, always so strong and distanced from everything, to come and find me and save me. I thrash so hard that another of the men has to take hold of my legs in order to restrain me.

“Let me go! Let. Me. G—” I choke on the last word. My head spins as something hard and blunt impacts against the back of my skull.

“Get her in the fucking van,” Raphael snaps, and then another heavy thud connects with my head. No spinning now. No fighting or screaming or clawing furiously for my life. Only a sinking sensation and blackness.