I picked up the keyboard and headed for the door, looking for Sam as I went. I made it all the way to the front of the store before I saw him. He was coming down the stairs.

“Sam!” I said.

“Emma!” He said it in my exact same inflection.

“You’re still here,” I said. “I thought maybe you’d left.”

“I was upstairs. I’m here looking at baby grands.”

Admittedly, it took me a second to realize that baby grand wasn’t some sort of candy bar.

“Oh, wow, you’re buying a baby grand piano,” I said, setting the keyboard down for a moment. “Further proof that you don’t actually work here.”

He smiled.

“I’m so sorry I assumed that you were a salesperson. I think I just figured because you worked at our store and . . . Anyway, I just made an ass out of myself when I went up to the register and tried to give you commission on my purchase.”

Sam laughed. “You know, I suspected at the end there that you might have thought I worked here, but I wasn’t sure how to clear it up without . . .”

“Making me feel dumb?”

He laughed. “Kinda.”

“Well, I officially feel dumb.”

“No, don’t,” he said. “It was my pleasure to help you. Really. It’s so nice to see you again.” The sincerity with which he looked at me was disarming. And I wasn’t sure whether I liked that or not. I was thinking maybe I did.

“I owe you a thank-you,” I said. “You were a great help.”

“Do you need lessons?” Sam said. “If you wanted I could . . . teach you. I’d be happy to do it. Show you a few things, just to get you started maybe.”

I looked at him, unsure how to respond.

“Or if not that, maybe I could just take you out for a drink sometime,” he said.

The realization of what was happening washed over me like a wave. Not one of those small waves that runs over your feet and gets the bottom of your jeans wet as you walk along the sand, either. The kind of wave that happens when you’re coming out of the water, with your back to the ocean, and it just appears out of nowhere and pummels you.

“Oh, my God,” I said, stunned. “You’re asking me out?”

I saw Sam’s shoulders slump and I caught the disappointment pass across his face before he covered it up.

“I was trying to be casual and subtle about it. Maybe one of those dates neither of us are sure is a date,” he said, and then he shook his head. “It’s over ten years later and I’m just as bad at it now as I was the first time, huh?”

I felt myself blushing and my blushing made Sam start to blush.

“Sorry,” he said. “I’m just getting out of a really long relationship, so I’m out of practice. You might not believe it but I used to be very good at talking to women back in college. As my dad always says, be direct but—”

Sam looked at me like he’d just revealed a terrible secret. He put his hand on his face and pinched the bridge of his nose. “Did I just admit that I ask my father for dating advice?” he said, without changing his expression.

I laughed. A quiet laugh. A “Yes, you did, but it’s totally fine” laugh.

That’s when I remembered how much I always liked him.

I liked him.

Sam was cute. And sweet. And he thought I was funny.

“It’s fine,” I said. “Look. I thought you were a salesperson. You ask your dad how to hit on women. We’re like the Tweedledee and Tweedledum of social interaction.”

He laughed. He looked so relieved.

I wanted to see him again. That was the truth. I wanted to spend more time with him. I wanted to be around him.

“How about this?” I said. “You can teach me ‘Chopsticks’ and I’ll buy you a beer.”

“Well, if it’s just ‘Chopsticks’ you’re after, I have a great idea.”

I looked at him, willing to hear him out.

He took my keyboard and I followed him as he led me up the stairs. The rickety, tight staircase led to a room full of huge instruments. A few upright pianos, a harp, a cello. Sam led me toward a sleek black baby grand. He put my keyboard down and then sat at the piano, tapping the spot next to him on the bench. I joined him.

He looked over at me and put his hands delicately on the keys. Then leaned into it and started playing “Chopsticks.”

I watched as his hands flew across the keys, the way they seemed to instinctually know what to do. He had nice hands, strong but gentle. Short, clean nails; long, lean fingers. I know women sometimes say they like men to have calluses and knobby knuckles, that they like a man whose toughness shows on his palms. But looking at Sam’s hands, I decided that way of thinking was all wrong. I liked the way his hands were agile and almost elegant. I found myself looking up his wrists to his arms and shoulders.

Watching Sam play the piano, remembering how skilled he was, how talented he was, how dexterous—I found myself wondering what else he could do with his hands.

You think you know who you are, you think you have your identity down pat, signed and sealed in a box that you call “me,” and then you realize you’re attracted to musicians—that “dexterous” is sexy to you—and you have to rethink everything you know about yourself.

He stopped playing. “All right, now you go.”

“Me?” I said. “Do that? I don’t even know where to start.”

He pressed down on a white key in front of me. I, dutifully, put my pointer finger on it.

“Try this finger,” he said as he pulled my middle finger onto the key.

I nodded.

“Now, hit that key like this.”

He hit another key in a rhythm, six times.

So I did the same with my key.

“And now hit this one,” he said as he pointed to another.

I followed each of his instructions, just as he told me. I was supposed to be looking at the keys, but half the time I was looking at him. He caught me once or twice, and I turned my head back to my fingers and the keys beneath them.

I played slowly and unmelodically. My fingers hesitated and then moved too quickly, sort of panicked and squirrelly. But I could recognize a faint pattern in my own movements.

His body brushed up against mine as we sat on that bench. He kept touching my hands with his.

“All right,” he said. “Think you can do that fast now? I’ll play the other part as you do it.”

“Sure,” I said. “Yeah, I got it.”

I rested my finger on the first key. He put his hand, gently, on the one just below it. “On three,” he said. “One . . . two . . . three.”

I hit mine.

He hit his.

And there it was.

Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh Duh . . .

“Chopsticks.”

We only played for a few seconds before I had hit all the notes I knew. Feeling shy, I pulled my hands back into my lap. A part of me hoped he’d continue to play. But he didn’t. He stopped his hand in place and rested it gently on the keys. He looked at me.

“So now that you know ‘Chopsticks,’ ” he said, “let’s go get a beer.”

I laughed. “You’re smoother than you think,” I said.

“My dad says it’s best to be persistent,” he said, joking. He looked confident. Hopeful.

I thought about it for a minute.

I thought about how nice it would be to order a gimlet and sit and talk to someone who was both a handsome man and an old friend.

But as Sam looked at me, waiting for my response, I suddenly felt a very sharp sense of fear. True fear.

This wouldn’t be dinner with an old friend.

This would be a date.

I couldn’t just throw myself into something like that.

I looked at Sam’s smile. It was fading as I made him wait for a response.

“It’s a rain check,” I said. “Is that OK?”

“Yeah,” he said, shaking his head. “Totally. Of course.”

“I really want to,” I said, reassuring.

“No, I get it.”

“I just have a thing.”