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“Kyle Comstock still hasn’t kissed me. It’s killing me.”
“It shouldn’t take this long,” Alice observes. “Maybe he’s g*y.”
“Alice,” Jase objects. “He’s fourteen. Jesus.”
“What’s g*y?” George asks, his mouth full of cookie.
“Gay is like those penguins we read about at Central Park Zoo,” explains Duff, still typing away on the computer. “Remember, sometimes the boy ones mate with other boy ones?”
“Oh. I rem’ber. What’s mate, I forget that part?” responds George, still chewing.
“Try this one,” Alice suggests. She walks up to Jase, shakes back her hair, casts her eyes down, walks her fingers up his chest, and then toys with the buttons of his shirt, swaying slightly toward him. “That one always works.”
“Not on your brother.” Jase backs up, rebuttoning.
“I guess I could try that.” Andy sounds doubtful. “But what if he sticks his tongue in my mouth right away? I’m not sure I’m ready for that.”
“Eeeew,” squeals Harry. “Barf. That’s rank.”
Feeling my face warm, I shift my eyes to Jase. He’s blushing too. But he quirks a little smile at me.
Mrs. Garrett sighs. “I think you should just take this at a slow pace, Andy.”
“Does it feel really gross, or nice?” Andy turns to me. “It’s so hard to imagine, even though I do try. All the time.”
“Samantha and I are going upstairs to, uh, feed the animals.” Jase grabs my hand.
“Is that what they call it now?” asks Alice languidly.
“Alice,” Mrs. Garrett begins as we hurry upstairs to the relative quiet of Jase’s room.
“Sorry,” he says, the tips of his ears still pink.
“No problem.” I pull the elastic out of my hair, toss it back, flutter my eyelashes and, reaching out, walk my fingers dramatically up his chest to unbutton his shirt.
“Oh my God,” Jase whispers. “It’s like I’ve just gotta…I can’t help myself…I—” He hooks his index finger into the waistband of my shorts, moving me closer. His lips descend on mine, familiar now, but more and more exciting. In the past few weeks, we’ve spent hours kissing, but only kissing, only touching each other’s faces and backs and waists. Jase, who takes his time.
Not like Charley, who was incapable of meeting my lips without reaching for more, or Michael, whose patented move was to thrust his hands up under my shirt, unclasp my bra, then groan and say, “Why do you do this to me?” Now it’s my hands that slide up under Jase’s shirt, up his chest, while I lower my head to his shoulder and breathe in deeply. All our other kisses have been slow and careful, by the lake, on the roof, potentially not so alone. Now we’re in his bedroom, and that feels both tempting and wicked. I move my hands to the hem of his shirt, tugging up, while part of me is completely shocked that I’m doing this.
Jase steps backward, looks at me, intent green eyes. Then he raises his arms so I can slip the shirt off.
I do.
I’ve seen him without a shirt. I’ve seen him in a bathing suit. But the only times I got to touch his chest it was dark. Now the afternoon sun slants into the room, which smells earthy and warm with all the plants, quiet except for our breathing.
“Samantha.”
“Mmmm,” I say, trailing my hand over his stomach, feeling the firm muscles tighten.
His hand reaches out. I close my eyes, thinking how embarrassed I’ll be if he stops me. Instead, his fingers close lightly on the hem of my shirt, sliding it up, while the other hand curves around my waist, then moves, touching my cheek, asking a silent question. I nod, and he eases the shirt entirely off.
Then he pulls me close and we’re kissing again, which feels much more intimate when so much of his skin is touching mine. I can feel the thud of his heartbeat and the rise and fall of his breathing. I bury my hands in the waves of his curls and press closer.
The door opens and in comes George. “Mommy said to bring these.”
We move hastily apart to find him extending a plate of chocolate chip cookies, several of which have large bites out of them. George thrusts the plate at us guiltily. “I had to make sure they were still good.” Then, “Hey, you guys have nothing on top!”
“Um, George—” Jase runs his hands through the hair at the back of his head.
“Me neither.” George jabs a finger at his own bare chest. “We match.”
“G-man.” Jase leads him to the door, handing him three cookies. “Buddy. Go back downstairs.” He gives his brother a little shove between his skinny shoulder blades, then shuts the door firmly behind him.
“What’re the chances he won’t mention the no-shirt thing to your mom?” I ask.
“Slim.” Jase leans back against the door, closing his eyes.
“George tells all.” I hastily tug on mine, yanking my arms into the sleeves.
“Let’s just, uh…” Assured Jase is at a loss.
“Feed the animals?” I suggest.
“Right. Yeah. Uh, here.” He crosses to some low drawers under his bed. “I have it all separated by…”
We sort food and dump out water bottles, refilling them, edge straw into cages. After about five minutes I say, “Put this back on now.” I thrust his shirt at him.
“Okay. Why?”
“Just do it.”
“Unbelievably distracted by my body, Samantha?”
“Yes.”
He laughs. “Good. We’re on the same page, then.” There’s a pause. Then he says, “I said that wrong. Like it was all about how you look, and that’s not it. It’s just that you’re so different than I thought you were.”
“Than you thought I was, when?”
“When I saw you. Sitting on your roof. For years.”
“You saw me. For years?” I feel myself flush again. “You didn’t tell me that.”
“For years. Course I didn’t tell you. I knew you watched us. Couldn’t figure out why you didn’t just come over. I thought…maybe you were shy…or a snob…I didn’t know. I didn’t know you then, Sam. Couldn’t help watching back, though.”
“Because I’m just so compelling and fascinating?” I roll my eyes.