“That’s because he also has more potential to really make you happy.”

“I don’t know what to do.” I groaned and banged my head back against the wall lightly. “Why do I feel like this? Why am I so wishy-washy? I hate this about myself.”

“You can’t just change who you are. You have to work on it.”

“You mean one day I won’t wake up without all these insecurities?” I joked and Lacey laughed.

“Unfortunately not. Just like one day, I won’t wake up and find a hot guy in my bed and my book done.”

“Well, we can work on both of those.” I stepped forward and hugged her. “I’m going to make sure that we get you a good guy, Lacey. You deserve one for putting up with me.”

“I sure do.” She giggled. “Now go, make your calls and let me write. This hero isn’t going to go car racing without me getting him to the track.”

“Car racing?” I asked curiously. “Is this still Play the Player?”

“Yes,” Lacey winked at me. “He’s going car racing and then they’re going to have sex in the car.”

“Sex in the car?” I started laughed. “Oh Lacey.”

“Don’t oh Lacey me. It’s going to be hot.” She walked back to the couch. “Hot, I say.” She shouted and I laughed at her as I left the room. I walked back into my bedroom and stared at the red roses on my bed and sighed. I grabbed my phone and called Scott and listened to the phone ringing as I stood there. The call went to voicemail and I hung up. I sat on the bed and waited to see if Scott would call me back, but instead I received a text about five minutes later.

Hey, I don’t want to talk anymore tonight. Sweet Dreams.

I stared at the text and sighed. I knew in my heart of hearts that Scott was upset with me. But what could I do? I dropped the phone on the bed and looked at the roses again. It was then that I noticed one white rose and one yellow rose in-between all the red roses. I frowned as I picked them up and grabbed my phone to see what a white rose and yellow rose symbolized. I searched and found out that a white rose symbolized new starts and the yellow rose symbolized friendship. And of course the red roses symbolized love. I knew that Shane was sending me a message with his bouquet. A message I should ignore, but as I lay there, I could feel my defenses crumbling. What would it hurt to give him a call? It wasn’t as if I were cheating on Scott by talking to Shane. Scott and I didn’t have anything. And maybe that was my fault, but I was hurt that he was shutting me out. I lay back and closed my eyes, waiting for a sign from a God as to whether I should call Shane or not. As I lay there an image of Scott popped into my mind and I started smiling. It was an image of when I was on the desk and he was between my legs in his office. It had been hot and sexy and I was feeling wet just remembering that day. I opened my eyes and looked at the roses and started laughing. Shane didn’t match up to Scott, not even a little bit. Yes, Shane and I had a past. Yes, sometimes I regretted the fact that we had ended up together. I missed the fact that he got me and understood me and where I was coming from, but I also knew I couldn’t get stuck in the past. That was my biggest problem. I knew that. I knew that and I didn’t want it to control me anymore.

Chapter Sixteen

“This football game is going to kill me.” Lacey sounded like she was grunting as she ran up to me. “I can barely breathe.”

“It won’t kill you.” I laughed and then lowered my voice. “See any guys you like?”

“I’m not even paying attention to any of the guys.” She said and bent over for a few seconds. “Though now that I’ve seen Scott I can see why he has you all hot and bothered.”

“Had me hot and bothered.” I said with a small sigh. “He hasn’t called or text me since last week when we spoke.”

“You did tell him you weren’t sure if you still loved your ex boyfriend.”

“I didn’t mean it like that.” I groaned. “I just meant that I might still have feelings. And I only paused because I was feeling upset about what he’d said about becoming engaged.”

“But he doesn’t know that, Eliza. He can’t read your mind.”

“I know.” I said with a frown.

“Come on girls.” Xander ran past us. “Get on the ball.”

“Don’t mind him.” Liv said, rolling her eyes as she caught up to him. “He’s just super competitive.”

“Sorry, we’re trying.” I said and grinned at Liv. I really liked her. She was fun and funny and I thought that we’d be really good friends if we ever got the opportunity.

“We’re all trying as hard as we can.” Liv said and stopped next to Lacey and I and grinned. “I’m going to take a break with you guys.” She laughed. “I’m out of shape or something, but all this running around is making me so tired.”

“I know, me too.” Lacey said and they laughed.

“Keep going, Alice.” Liv screamed down the field. I looked ahead and saw Alice running down the field with Scott behind her, and Xander’s younger brother Henry behind him. I could also see Aiden running fast and my breath caught as I watched them all running behind Alice.

“Wow, she’s fast.” I said feeling impressed as I watched her.

“She’s going faster than I’ve ever seen in her life.” Liv laughed and then screamed again. “You’ve nearly got it, Alice.” We watched as Alice approached the end and I wondered if Scott was going to catch her in time.