"You mean like someone who was a wife beater gets reborn as a woman?" Shaunee said.

"How about as a woman in a burka in Afghanistan?" Aphrodite added with a sarcastic lift of an eyebrow.

"Yeah, that is kinda what I mean," I said. "But I think the what and where and who would be up to the Goddess."

"Do you think it's ever up to the person?" Aurox asked me.

"I hope so," I said earnestly, thinking of Heath and my mom.

"So, knowing beyond any doubt that there is an Otherworld and that our loved ones can find their way to it, even if they aren't vampyres, or even fledglings, is some comfort to us as we outlive the mortals in our lives. That does not mean losing a parent is ever easy. Zoey, I know this is painful, but could you share with us what it is that is most difficult for you about your mother's death?" I nodded and opened my mouth to say something about the fact that now she can't ever make up for the way she un-mom-ed me over the past three years, but the words wouldn't come.

"Take your time," Thanatos said.

Stevie Rae reached over and took my hand. Squeezing it, she whispered, "It's okay, just pretend like there's no one here except us. You can tell me."

I looked at my BFF and blurted, "It's so awful that I don't know what really happened to her."

"Why do you think that is what saddens you the most?"

From the stage Thanatos asked the question, but I kept looking at Stevie Rae. She smiled and said, "How come it would be better if you knew what happened to your momma?"

"Because someone needs to pay for what was done to her," I told my BFF.

"Vengeance?" Thanatos asked.

Then I did look at her. "No. Justice," I said firmly.

"It is admirable as well as understandable for you to desire justice. Let this be a lesson to the rest of you-there is a distinct difference between wanting to gain revenge and exact vengeance, and wanting the truth to shine forth so that justice for all is ill uminated." Thanatos met my gaze. "I believe I can help give you the truth, so that you will be able to get justice for your mother and closure for yourself."

"What do you mean?"

"I spoke with your grandmother. Today is the fifth night after your mother's death. I explained to her that five is an important number in our belief system-it represents the elements and our closeness to them. She has agreed to pause her traditional cleansing on this, the fifth night. It is not a certainty, but with the elemental power held by your circle and your connection to the one whose death we seek to reveal, I believe I can ill uminate the truth of your mother's murder if you are willing to cast your circle and witness what it reveals."

"I'm willing." I felt sick, but I knew I had to go through with this.

"There is more," Thanatos said. She looked from me to Stevie Rae. "Zoey will cast the circle. I will be there to invoke the presence of death, but the spell that invokes death hinges upon you."

"Me?" Stevie Rae squeaked.

"It is your element in which this deed was imprinted. It is through your element the truth of it will be revealed." Thanatos's gaze sought out each member of my circle as she continued explaining. "This spell will not be pleasant. Zoey's mother was murdered. If we are successful, we will witness that horrendous act. You must each be willing participants, focused and aware of what it is you are agreeing to."

"I'm willing," Stevie Rae said immediately.

"Me, too ... Yep, I'm in ... I'm willing," came from Shaunee and Damien and Erin.

"Then it is decided. We leave as soon as first hour is over. If I call your name you will assemble in the parking lot and prepare yourself for the ritual and spell. If I do not call your name please proceed to your second-hour class. Your homework will be an essay on loss-and that homework will be due from those participating in the ritual as well as those of you who do not. The students joining me are: Zoey, Stevie Rae, Damien, Shaunee, Erin, and Aphrodite. The rest of you may begin working on your essays. Good day to you, and blessed be." Thanatos bowed formally to her classroom and then went to sit behind her desk.

My mouth flopped open. As Grandma would have said, this whole thing flummoxed me.

Aphrodite plopped down in the desk beside me and hissed a whisper. "Talk to Thanatos. Be sure she doesn't let Dragon go with us." She paused, tilted her head, and gawked at Stevie Rae and Rephaim, who totally had their heads together and were talking like a mile a minute.

"Unless I'm wrong-and I'm never wrong-she's gonna insist birdboy goes with us, which is no surprise because I can promise you Darius won't let me go without him. But having Rephaim with us means Dragon can't go or, according to my vision, he's gonna get sliced in two."