As Boone looked around, he noticed several other members of the staff had come in. And every single doggen was bowing to him as well.

Closing his eyes, he wanted to tell them they were going to have to move on. But he didn’t have the strength. Still, he was surprised by how touched he was by the show of loyalty and respect.

It warmed the heart, it truly did.

* * *

Helania passed the night hours cleaning everything she could get her hands on. She started with her bed and her towels, stripping everything and filling her washing machine with a big load. Then she hit the bathroom with the Scrubbing Bubbles, getting down on her hands and knees and all but rubbing through the layers of tile to the frame of the building. Next on the elbow grease docket was her kitchen. She emptied out her refrigerator, took the shelves to the sink, and sponged them with soap and hot water until they gleamed. She also handwashed the floor, the fronts of the cabinets, and all the drawers.

She even took out the tray the silverware was in and vacuumed what was underneath. When that didn’t go far enough, she put the forks and the knives and the spoons on the counter and wiped out the tray itself.

In the sitting area, she pulled the duvet cover off the sofa. Threw that in the wash. She vacuumed the rug and then went around and reorganized her needlepoint pillow supplies. When she got out the step stool and Swiffer’d a cobweb from the corner up at the ceiling, she was ashamed of how long it had been since she had really paid attention to the place.

It had been well before Isobel had passed.

Had been killed, she corrected herself. As she had Boone. Sometime around dawn, she ran out of steam. Sitting on the bare sofa and listening to the dryer do its business on the duvet, she fought against emotions that were just below the surface.

Isobel would know how to handle this, she thought as she put her hand on her flat stomach.

If her sister were alive . . . Isobel would know what to do. About the possibility of pregnancy. About the situation with Boone. About these tears that seemed determined to break through her self-control.

“Why did you have to go?” she said hoarsely.

The instant the words left her, her eyes shot to the cloak she wore to hide herself at Pyre. And it was then that anger simmered as she realized she should have been out looking for her sister’s killer.

Who had not been found yet.

Helania looked around at her sparkling-clean apartment. One night of losing focus was allowable, but no more than that. She was not pregnant, and no matter how protective Boone was feeling, she was going back to work down at that club tomorrow evening.

She had her dead to ahvenge. And sitting around and being weepy and ridiculous was not going to serve that larger purpose.

Reaching into the pocket of her sweatshirt, she took out her phone. She had silenced the ringer because she’d needed time to get her head straight—which had evidently translated into her getting her living quarters straight.

As she turned the unit over, she braced herself to see a bunch of notifications that Boone had called or texted, and she wasn’t sure how she felt about that. Part of her wanted to talk to him. Part of her didn’t—

No calls from him. No texts, either.

Staring at the blank screen, she was struck by a hollow ache in her chest. But what could she expect? She’d wanted space.

He was giving it to her.

The following evening, Helania leveled the muzzle of her ninemillimeter at a target far down the gun range. She was in shooting dock 4, ear protection on, an open box of bullets on the counter in front of her, an empty one on the concrete ground by her feet.

Focusing on the center of the bull’s-eye—which radiated out from the outline of a torso—she steadied her arms in front of her and squeezed off one . . . two . . . three . . . fourfivesix—

“—closing in fifteen minutes. We are closing in fifteen minutes. Please begin to pack up now.”

Lowering the gun, she hit the switch on the cubicle’s wall, and the target rushed to her like a dog called home, its bottom bending back against the draft created by the speed. When the heavy paper was in front of her, she unclipped it and stared at the holes she had made.

All of them were concentrated in the center of the concentric circles, off by only one ring . . . two at the most.

“You’re damn good with a gun.”

As she looked over at the attendant who’d approached her, she marveled once again at how the mufflers on her ears managed to dim the gunshots while allowing voices to come through.

Stripping off her ear protection, she said, “I’m okay.”

“Better than most.”

She smiled because she felt like she had to, and actually, she had nothing against the guy. He was the nice older one who wore a US Veteran hat and always had on some kind of concert T-shirt from the eighties. With baggy blue jeans and a weathered face that had her thinking he was in his late sixties, early seventies, he looked like he was well familiar with manual labor, long hours, and AC/DC.

“You want me to walk you to your car?” he said. “It’s late.”

“I’ll be all right, but thank you.”

“Keep your gun loaded and out. I’ll watch you on the monitor like I always do. Nice girl like you, I’m glad you know how to shoot.”

With a curt nod, he limped back down the lineup of vacant docks. She was pretty sure he was missing one leg and had a prosthetic, but she hadn’t asked. And she did appreciate his concern for her. Usually.

Tonight, it made her uncomfortable, although not because she was threatened by him in any way. She just wondered why she got special attention. Was it because he sensed a weakness in her?

Somehow, she didn’t want that question to be answered. Inner strength was very important to her all of a sudden.

Holstering her gun at her hip, she packed up the unused shot in her nylon bag, threw out the empty box of bullets, and pulled her parka on. On her way to the exit, she went by the glassed-in kiosk where the attendant sat and waved at him. He pointed to a grainy black-and-white TV that sported an image of the parking lot and gave her a thumbs-up. She nodded in return.

Outside, she walked over to a ten-year-old Toyota truck. She and Isobel had bought the thing new by pooling their savings. Though they could always dematerialize places, vehicles—especially those with a flatbed—were really handy for big shops, when you were moving, and on those rare occasions when you simply felt like driving somewhere.

As she got behind the wheel, she hit the clutch, put the gearshift in neutral, and started the engine. Out on the road, she headed for home . . . and wondered whether she was going to end up there. So many detours: She could go to the grocery. She could hit the twenty-four-hour Target for cleaning supplies. She could just drive around until she needed gas.

At which point, she could get some gas and keep driving around.

Yet she knew Boone was waiting for her and wouldn’t leave until she showed up at her apartment. Even though he still hadn’t reached out, he was indeed the kind of male who, if he made an appointment with someone, always showed up. Well, except for that diner thing, and he’d certainly had a valid reason for missing that meal.

He would be in front of her building, just as he’d said.

God . . . she really wanted to drive away, drive far, far away. The idea of going to some clinic to be poked and prodded at had no appeal whatsoever, and she was struggling with the balance of interests. It was her body, but Boone wasn’t wrong. If she were pregnant, half of what was inside of her was his.

Part of him.

So he had some rights in all this.

Not that she was pregnant, of course. What were the chances, really.

Sure, they had had sex beforehand, but it had been hours before.

At least four. Maybe six.

Shit.

Ten minutes later, Helania pulled into the parking lot around the back of her building. Getting out, she shouldered her nylon bag and walked through the packed snow to the rear entrance. She used her key to get in, and then took a right and went down the stairwell to the basement floor.

As she bottomed out on the lower level, she opened the steel door—

Boone was standing beside her apartment’s unimpressive, nothing-special entrance: His big body was leaning against the wall, his hands in the pockets of his leathers, his dark head lowered. He came to attention the split second he noticed her, and given the way he straightened his leather jacket, it was obvious he was feeling as awkward as she was.

“Hi,” she said as she came forward.

“I didn’t know if you were . . .” He cleared his throat. “Hi.”

“You didn’t know if I was going to show up?”

“The car is waiting for us outside.”

“I’d like to drop my stuff off.”

His nostrils flared. “You were shooting.”

“Yes.” She frowned. “It’s important to keep my skills up.”

“I’m not suggesting it isn’t. I’m in a training program, remember. The Brothers stress all the time how critical practice is.”

As they stared at each other, she remembered sitting across from him at Remi’s, the conversation flowing so smoothly that it had been like air in her lungs: easy and life-sustaining. And yet now they were here, with nothing but jagged syllables and ragged silences between them.

Helania dropped her shoulder bag and crossed her arms over her chest. It was a while before she could find the right words.

“I don’t know . . .” She took a deep breath and looked into his eyes. “I don’t know how to get back to where we were. I’ve lost us. And even as I say that, I know it’s ridiculous because it’s not like we’ve been together for long at all. So what exactly am I not getting back to? Still . . . I miss where we were and I hate where we are.”

Things got wavy as the tears came, and she cursed, thinking of the target range attendant. No wonder people assumed she needed to be taken care of left and right. She was a goddamn mess—

“Helania. Come here.”

She put her hand out. “No. No, I don’t want to lean on you. I don’t want . . . I need to stand on my own. For the first time in my life, I want to be strong.”