I glanced over towards Ellie and she was smiling. Just then I heard the guys. They had all walked down to the park with the kids. I loved seeing Josh pushing a stroller with two sleeping babies in it.

“Does Josh handle the twins good, Heather?” I asked as I peeked over at her watching him. The love pouring out from her eyes was hard to miss.

She looked at me and nodded her head. “He’s amazing with them both, and he’s not afraid to be alone with them. I love that.”

Ari jumped up and walked towards Jeff. Luke was on his shoulders jabbering away.

Luke yelled out and Jeff stopped to take him off his shoulders. Ari bent down as Luke ran into her arms.

I looked at Gunner, who was carrying Alex on his shoulders as well. Ellie got up and walked over to them. I laughed when Alex started crying as Gunner tried to take her down.

“Daddy’s girl,” Ellie said as Alex smiled down at her.

Brad looked up at me and I had to catch my breath. He smiled at me, and I … if I had been standing, I would have had to grab onto something to hold myself up. He winked at me and started laughing. I slowly got up and made my way down to him.

I walked up to him and stood on my tippy toes to give him a kiss. He put his hand behind my neck and held me against his lips as he deepened the kiss. It took everything I had not to let out a moan. He pulled back and whispered, “I missed you, pumpkin.”

“I missed you too.” I looked at Maegan, who was smiling. I stepped back and held out my arms and she smiled bigger as I took her into my arms. I gave her a good smell and Brad laughed as he kissed Maegan on the top of the head. I couldn’t help it; I had to smell her each time. I loved how she smelled.

We all made our way back to the deck. Ari put Luke down to play with Alex in the grass. Before I could even ask, Heather said, “There are no ants, Manda, so don’t worry.”

I giggled and set Maegan down next to Alex. I stood there and looked around as I took in the sight. Gunner was now sitting behind Alex, and Josh was talking to Brad and Jeff. Ellie went in to help Ari and Heather with the little ones. I put my hand on my stomach and tried to hold my smile in.

As I sat down and watched Gunner, Jeff, and Brad play with Maegan, Luke and Alex, I felt someone come up behind me. I felt Grace pulling my hair and I started laughing. I turned around and saw her beautiful smile looking right at me as Ari held her.

“My God, Ari she is going to break hearts,” I said as Ari moved around me, sat down and held Grace up in front of her. She smiled.

“I know she is.” Then she looked at me and asked, “When are you going to tell him?”

I bit down on my lower lip. “Two days.”

“Christmas Eve. Can you wait two days?”

I let out a chuckle. “Hell, I don’t know. I’m dying to tell him but I want to make it special for him.” I peeked over at her and she gave me a weak smile.

“I understand, but Manda, no matter how you tell him, he is going to be beyond excited. You know that, right?”

I nodded my head as I looked back at the man I loved more than anything. To think we almost didn’t make it to where we were today.

I closed my eyes and silently thanked God. When I opened them again Brad was looking at me. The look in his eyes caused me to suck in a breath of air. It was like he was looking deep into my soul.

I never took my eyes off of him but asked Ari, “Do you think Brad knows?”

I pulled my eyes from his and quickly looked at Ari, who was now looking at Brad. She looked back at me and said, “I think that boy is just head over heels in love with you, Amanda.”

I looked back at him and he was still watching me. I slowly licked my lips and then put my index finger in my mouth and barely bit down on it. I could see the look in his eyes change. He stood up and walked over to Josh and said something to him. Josh jumped up and so did Gunner. They each held their hands out for Brad to shake them.

Ellie came walking out of the house and I jumped up quickly.

“Jesus H. Christ, Amanda, you just scared the hell out of me,” Ari said. Grace started laughing at Ari jumping.

“Ells, I’m still bringing the desserts and ham for Christmas, right?” I asked as I reached down and kissed Grace and then Ari on the cheek.

Ellie nodded her head and said, “Yeah but are y’all leaving? Already?”

Ari threw her head back and said, “Ells…the hormones must have kicked in. Look at her…she has that look in her eyes.”

I just looked at Ari and gave her a dirty look. Heather came walking out and smiled at everyone as she said, “The twins are sleeping!” I couldn’t help but chuckle at how happy and relieved she sounded.

“Sweets, we are taking off. I’ll see you Christmas Eve,” I said as I walked up and gave Heather a kiss and hug good-bye.

As we walked to the car, Brad grabbed my hand. Yep, there went the butterflies.

I looked up at him and winked. The smile that spread across his face made my knees feel weak. God, I want him so damn much.

Brad was putting Maegan in her car seat as he looked at me and said, “We seriously have to think about buying a house closer to our friends.”

I tilted my head and smiled. “Really? ’Cause I would love that, but you can’t drive that far. What made you say that?”

“Well, for one thing, I love spending time with everyone, and the second thing is if we lived closer, I could get you home faster so I could make love to you longer.”

I bit down on my lower lip. “Oh.”

He let out a sexy-ass laugh and said, “Come on pumpkin, let’s get home so I can give you some much needed attention.”

I felt my face blush as I looked away and then back at him.

Oh Lord. Trying to not tell him about the baby was going to be very hard.

Very hard indeed.

Chapter 2: Brad

After we got Maegan settled and in bed, Amanda and I both crashed onto the sofa. I looked over at her yawning and I couldn’t help but smile. She looked beautiful. There was something about her tonight that just made her…glow. Her face was glowing and she just seemed so happy.

“Manda, are you happy?” I asked her as she snapped her head over to look at me.

She slowly smiled and I couldn’t help but smile back at her. “I’ve never been so happy in my entire life. Are you happy?”

I reached over and pulled her onto my lap as I pushed her hair back and placed my hand on her face. “I’m so happy that sometimes I feel like I have to pinch myself because I think this is all just a dream. You, me and Maegan.” I felt a pain in my chest for just a brief moment. We had been trying to get pregnant for the last five months and I was starting to think it just wasn’t meant to be.

Amanda used her index finger to pull my face towards her. “It’s going to happen.” I smiled and shook my head. How did she know I was thinking about a baby?

I sucked in a deep breath and quickly let it out as I looked into her eyes. Her green eyes were the most beautiful green I’d ever seen. “I love you, Amanda.” I whispered.

“I love you too.”

I tilted my head and smiled at her. “You want to go and try and make a baby?” Her smiled dropped and she sucked in a breath of air. I knew she was getting stressed about not getting pregnant. I just want to believe that I didn’t do any harm to myself with the drug use or that this was in some way a form of punishment.

She gave me a sexy grin and climbed off my lap. I sat there and watched as she pulled her t-shirt up and over her head.

Damn, this girl is perfect in every way. She moved her hands down and started to unbutton her jeans. She smiled as she slowly slid them down, exposing the white lace thong panties she had on. I moved my eyes up and down her body. Her light red hair was just below her shoulders and looked beautiful against her skin.

I licked my lips as she moved her hands up her body and unclasped her bra. My heart was beating a mile and minute, and I swore it was like I was going to see her naked for the first time. Her bra dropped and I bit down on my lower lip as she threw her head back and began touching her breasts.

Holy fucking shit. “Manda,” was all I could get out as she snapped her head back up and slowly moved her hands down to her panties and slipped her hand inside them. Is she trying to kill me? She’s never done anything like this before.

I swallowed hard and tried to move as I watched her feel on herself with one hand and play with her nipples with her other hand. I thought I was going to pass out from all the blood rushing to my dick.

I stood up and grabbed her neck and pulled her to me as I began to kiss her. The sounds she was making were driving me crazy. She pulled her hand out of her panties and began pulling at my hair.

“Manda, are you trying to kill me?” I whispered against her lips.

“Brad…I’m so horny and I want you so badly.”

I reached down and picked her up as I carried her upstairs to our bedroom. The whole time we never stopped kissing.

Please don’t let this be a dream…

I placed her gently down on the bed and she looked at me. “Touch yourself again,” I said. She smiled and pulled her panties completely off and dropped them to the side of the bed. She put her hands on her body and slid them down; stopping at her stomach, she closed her eyes before moving her hand further down.

I quickly took my shirt and pants off and removed my boxers as I watched her touch on herself. Hottest fucking thing I’ve ever seen.

“Brad…” she whispered. She looked like she was getting close to coming so I crawled onto the bed and buried my face between her legs.

“God yes!” she cried out. I slipped my fingers inside of her and moaned at how wet she was. Before I knew it she was calling out my name. I looked up at her as she grabbed onto the sheets and arched her back as she came. There was nothing I loved more than making her feel good. I reached my hand up and placed it on her stomach and she bucked and then I saw the tears. I instantly stopped and sat up.

“Pumpkin? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?” I asked. She quickly wiped the tears away.

She smiled big and said, “I’m just so happy, Brad. You make me feel so loved and I just…I guess I’m just really happy.”

I quickly ran into the bathroom and rinsed out my mouth, I just wanted to kiss her and I knew how she was…no way she would let me after I just gave her oral sex.

I walked back in and she was laying there…smiling as she held her hand out to me. I walked over and took her hand and kissed it as I moved on top of her.

“Love me, Brad. Please love me,” she whispered against my neck. I slowly moved to where I was teasing her with my tip before I buried myself deep inside her.

“God Amanda, you feel so good.”

“I love you, Brad. I love you so much.” She whispered as I made sweet love to her. I didn’t want it to end so every time I felt like I was about to come I would stop and begin kissing her. “Please tell me I’m not dreaming,” I said as I kissed down her neck.

“You’re not…dreaming…Brad…please go faster,” she begged as I stopped moving.

As I began moving again she arched herself and pulled me closer to her. It didn’t take long before her orgasm caused me to let go. I softly called her name over and over as I poured myself into her. Pleading with God to please let her get pregnant.